Dearest:
Simply put, I write to close the distance between us. No, the irony is not lost on me, as I realize that every moment puts me further from you, but I must try somehow to seal the foreboding gap I have foolishly put between us. As I sit, I watch the scenery pass the carriage doors. I head to port, but this time it is without you. I am sorry that I must go with you absent from my side, but you are with child and mustn’t travel. I do not know how long I shall be away from you, but already I grow weary of my journey and wish to be with you. We are one and the same, and therefore I know you mourn my departure as I do, but we mustn’t grieve over my brief excursion; our love is too great and noble to allow us to lament. Just as virtuous men pass on without grieving for their own souls, we mustn’t sigh or weep, or make any noise at all, for it would make our love a profanity.
Just as earthquakes are violent and troublesome, the movement of celestial bodies causes no fear or commotion; the separation of our heavenly love therefore needs not cause the commotion of an earthquake, or mirror the separation of more physical lovers. If we were earthly lovers, we would not be able to withstand this separation, because it would remove the only thing which supported our love, and that is our bodily contact. But alas, in our heightened devotion physicality means nothing.
My love, we are so close that our two souls are one, and though I travel so many hours from you, our bonds are not separated, but expanded, as if gold turned to leaf, untarnishable in its beauty. Oh I know you very well, and here you argue, perhaps simply to argue with your mischievous smile, that we are actually separate—well, if we are two, then we are two so as stiff twin compasses are two. Separate, yet joined, though you may lean and hearken after me, you always remain until I return. Though I must go and separate from you once more, the determination with which you keep steadfast keeps me stable. Without you my earth would cease to turn. Separate or as one, our love transcends that of earthly devotion. Mourn not my absence, and nor shall I.
Yours.
